Saturday, February 21, 2015

Some Stuff and Thangs...

So... It's been a while since I've posted. It sucks because I keep telling myself that I need to...but when life gets in the way, it just does. Work has been insane. And school doesn't help. Since I have some time this lovely evening, I wanted to write about some stuff. Trust me when I say that I have some time, because if it wasn't snowing I would be out running errands, and probably catching up with people who haven't seen my face in a long time.

So... I bought this camera, right (Canon T3i)? To make YouTube videos, right? Yeah, that's still happening. I've been doing test runs to see what works and what doesn't. I am so not used to being in front of a camera and it is definitely evident when I watch myself. I am unprepared, my hair is a mess, I'm dropping things, the lighting is WAAAAY too yellow, the background behind me is a mess... It's just bad, you guys. Then, there are things I notice about myself. Things like, "Ash, your nails aren't done. Gross.", "HOOOOLY Double chin.", "Your hair though, honey. Please do something." Blah. x__x Needless to say, that is still in the works. Trust me.

On the bright side, the finished product is pretty good, if I say so myself.

I can't lie... I feel like I am getting much better at this makeup thing... lol

Moving on... I made myself a promise. I would be completely done with my Bachelor's degree by the Summer of next year. This sounds great, and all. But what does that exactly mean for me? It means that I will become an absolute CRAZY person, by the time it's all over. But the goal is worth the sacrifice. I have things I want to accomplish in life, and honestly, school is what is keeping me from moving forward. It'll launch me into my dreams, but the process of completion has been a long, tedious, and absolutely annoying one. I'm ready to move on. Period.

Moving forward... Weight loss. Weight loss. Weight. LOSS. Something I am constantly obsessing over. It's ridiculous. I refuse to weigh myself, but I am constantly looking at myself in the mirror, thinking of healthier recipes, ways to work out, and reminding me of my beach trip in May. However... I love carbs. That is my guilty pleasure. I can live without the sweets, junk food, pizza, and the late night runs to McDonald's. I have been for quite some time. I can't live without Chinese takeout every once in a while, though. It's the CARBS. I love my bread, pasta, and rice. Rice is truly a weakness for me. And I can't just have it once in a while. It needs to be in one of my meals at least a few times a week lol. It's sad, I know. But I don't think I can ever give it up. Hmmm... maybe my new gym membership at Gold's Gym will help balance that out. I'm making the switch from Planet Fitness to Gold's Gym. That's probably not something that matters to anyone, but I'm excited about it. *shrugs* Anyone else on their weight loss/healthy lifestyle journey? What do you do? 

Other than that, I haven't been able to focus on much of anything else. I have a post coming up about relationships and my take on them right now. I need a good venting session, but you know how that goes. You don't want to start telling someone your problems in their entirety, and then in mid-vent you start thinking about whether or not that person cares... So, I've just nixed that idea entirely. And to be honest, I just want to be able to express what's truly on my mind without any commentary.

Anyway, I hope all is well with each of you. I miss blogging. I really do. I'm working on so many things, but doing this never leaves my mind. I hope to be back soon.

Talk to you soon

Snowed in like me but need a Target fix? I've been there twice this week. It's an addiction.